Allowing can be different for many. As I learned what allowing from Spirit was it was quite different from what I could have imagined. Spirit’s ways are the ways of love and light. We can digress from our greatness we are born with over time as we become covered in the illusion. Our reality in the illusion is constantly changing. Here I was covered in the conditioning of my story written with a strong element of fear. The fear spilled over into my love for my creator. I felt the creator could and would only love me so much because I was me. Myself worth was based on what I was handed at birth. No matter how many times Spirit came through to teach me I was worthy and deserving, the constant mistreatment by mankind spilled over into my relationship with Spirit. It was not until I started healing myself that I realized one day – Go inside and you will find all you are seeking. I knew this and had experienced it, but now I was to live it every day.
The moment I went inside, I felt all I had been looking for. It was love and peace and it was what I needed in this moment. Many messages had come that said stay strong. I kept thinking how am I suppose to stay strong as I was transforming into what Spirit called “one of the few mystics in the world who could get very close to God.” Of course I was in shock as I heard the words even though I had been doing the work all along to get to this point for 11 years. I stayed dedicated no matter what was said to me by people. The people pleaser in me at some point just died. She became long gone. I contracted to do the work and I was never going to give up my mission in life. The time came for me to stop listening to people and get to the hard work of healing myself. I cannot explain the abusive situations I found myself in so many times. It was the law of attraction that came from my childhood. Somehow the dysfunction followed me around everywhere I went. After Spirit showed me how to be self-aware and unblock it to heal it, my life changed. Here I sat on my birthday 7/7/2014 no longer seeking but finding my inner path to God. I reached in and said this is where you are – inside of me. I no longer need to worry about anything. I am provided for and well taken care of.
Then I realized I was in a safe place with friends who are my family. I know how much they love me as we sat down to dinner to eat. We laughed and joked about many different things. Finally, I got it I was surrounded by love all along as I healed myself. The creator was working with me to bring me home with open arms. Head home if you are feeling lonely or sad; you will be welcomed with open arms. Namaste.
Bridget DeBose – Founder of Living as Divinity – Spiritual Teacher, Medium, and Master Intuitive Healer
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